I feel a little like I’m going in to battle this morning. Like I’m a gladiator taking on a fierce enemy once again… the marathon distance. At times during my fitness challenge my adversary has succumbed easier than others. The first time I ran a marathon it took me 5hrs30, the second 6hrs30 and today? Who knows? The times I’ve run are a really great indication of how my fitness has progressed. I honestly thought I’d get more fit, not less as I ran more marathons. The reality is that, while I’ve not had any serious injuries (except perhaps my big blister), the side effects I get from my chemo have really halted my progress.
Usually this is in the form or nausea or fatigue that stops me for a few days after chemo. My last treatment was almost two weeks ago on Monday last week (16/06/14). Since then I have been suffering from a particular side effect (diahorrea) that has drained me of all my energy. In the run up to a marathon this is obviously not ideal and I sadly spent all of yesterday in bed. Not the best marathon prep ever, but at least I will be fresh! I suppose I could get really cross at being poorly the cycle before a marathon, but in truth I’ve been very lucky with chemo treatment and I’ve never had to deal with side effects like these before. I may have gotten ill just before a marathon, but that’s the nature of the challenge I’ve set myself. With running so many marathons in such a short space of time I’m only a few weeks away from a marathon. I’m also lucky because I have a stoma and believe me it makes having these side effects a little more pleasant than I remember having diahorrea in the past before my stoma.
I mentioned earlier that I thought I’d get fitter as I progressed through my fitness challenge. It would have been nice, but it’s not been my experience. Chemo was always a variable I couldn’t control or measure in my planning. With every dose I have I get tireder and tireder. The side effects make training very difficult, if not impossible. My fitness obviously takes a huge hit and the amount of sheer determination required to finish the race increases each time take my place at the marathon start line. The inevitable consequence is happening today, I’m rocking up at a marathon, running on nothing, but my determination with absolutely no training in the last 13 days. This is what I mean by the feeling that I’m going into battle. Today is going to be hard work. I’m tired to start with, but I can’t quit. Every marathon I’ve run I said was going to be the toughest, but that’s because the perception I have of the punishment my body is able to take changes with each marathon I run with progressively less fitness. Again though I feel lucky. It’s through adversity that we are able to learn most about ourselves and if that is really the case then I should discover lots about myself today.
Ben’s Bowel Movements. Running 6 Marathons in 6 months in support of cancer charities:
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